My story, and this community. (Feedback)

[Darkydude]

I'd like to share what's below with you all, please read.

I know without a doubt, that you'll take this seriously, you guys are cool that way.

Way back then, when I was about 12 years old, I was, like usual, fascinated by the horror genre.
So one day I decided to go on a huge search for the scariest game in the whole world, which turned out to be a mod called Afraid Of Monsters.
I played the mod for a short while. Rather than being scared out of my wits, I was absolutely HOOKED. Almost like David Leatherhoff on his furious rampage for those drugs. I completed the original AoM on all difficulties. I did the same with AoM:DC which quickly soon became my favorite mod.

I then checked out what Andreas' profile & background was like and was so intrigued on his view of the psychological horror genre. It was unbelievably like mine. And I hated myself for not being older and being a good friend of his. I would've, by far. It was sort of a dream of mine. I just loved everything that was about him and his work.
And that mod, it was just utter perfection. Almost as if I made it myself. I was more than just a quiet fan boy, I quite frankly played/edited/customized/acted/listened/wrote the mod continuously like everyday, for years, during the troubled and hard times.
This may seem much, but with the amount I've learned from Andreas, its almost like he has taught me the way of life.

I won't forget James either, from what I know, he's very helpful & a damn good hard worker. I don't really know alot about him but I do know he deserves just the amount of credit RuMpel does. I feel sorry for him at times.

Afraid Of Monsters to this day is still my favorite mod of all time.
Whenever I hear the beautiful track, 'Stone In Focus' every single time, I vividly vision and recall the twitcher's face from the AoM:DC main menu, while it should remind me of the unique Aphex Twin.
It's left such a drastic but charming effect on me.
And also, is it merely me or does this image contain such an amazing amount of symbolism?
It basically speaks the mod for itself, all in one image.

I've been following Andreas' progress (Don't think of any of this that way. ) all these past years, from 2005 till current 2012. I remember when he was just a lone modder, from teaming up with James and then finally forming the legendary Team Psyskallar. I didn't start officially talking until 2010. (I was mature enough to post then, and incredibly shy. )
I began to regularly post comments in ModDB's Cry Of Fear's chat box, during the time of its development.

So it's all sentimental to me now, left a clear vibrant, pleasant scar.
I will never forget the days, the experiences, the horror, the scares.
I will never forget the downright powerful Cry Of Fear community and the mod that kick-started it all.
I will never forget the prodigy developers (RuMpel & James) that ingeniously created it.
I will never forget it all, ever.

I honestly admit, it's been one hell of a fucking journey.
I'm glad to have served my time daily, with you.

I could shed a tear for you guys, infront of the whole world, and not be embarrassed at all.

I need to add, I've never felt so welcome to such a group of kind people.
Where we can discuss our own interests with sheer delicate ease.
Heck, it makes me proud that we can even talk about our personal life.
How awesome we are, all working together.

And not forgetting to mention, our fond love for Joe Biden.

I wish you and everyone a very bright and pleasant future.
And always remember, no matter what, you are cared for, atleast here in this Forum.
Here, you can message or post a topic on whatever subject, we'll help.
So don't give up hope, and try to keep on striving even when the light grows dim.

Even I can find it hard to achieve saying that to myself.

Thank you very much for reading all this.

Best regards, the Darky Dude.

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Oh man, I didn't think you were into everything here so much.
Nice huge wall of text, it makes me reflect on my childhood memories for some reason.

[ruMpel]

Wow man, I don't know what to say. I feel so honored! This really hits me personally, and I love it. Thanks for your words, it really motivates me.

[Darkydude]

Oh man, I didn't think you were into everything here so much.

Yeah, I wouldn't blame you.
I dedicate most of my day here anyways, I do try to get involved more often, but I usually miss, fuck up or not confident enough to do anything.
Np, RuMpel.

[mikkomies]

It kinda baffles me how i never got into following Rumpel's work and later, team psykskallar's. Im a little shamed of myself because of that.

I remember how i first was introduced to afraid of monsters. I was about 13-14 and i was exploring MODDB for a mod to play. Then i happened to see this "Afraid of monsters" mod and i checked out the trailer. Being the huge ass pussy that i was, i never played it because it looked so scary. Many months after that i told my friend about "A very scary looking mod" that we should try. We played the first nightmare sequence and stopped.

Last year me and by buddy played some scary maps on sven co-op and then i remebered that i had seen videos of AOM being played on sven. So i told him "Let's play this. it's scary." So we got our hands on the maps (some of them were broken) and we had a great time. We also recorded it to tube.

After playing the sven version i downloaded the real deal and played it through a couple of times. Still thinking "Why the hell didn't i download this those many years ago?"

After that i was hungry for a new horror mod so i checked MODDB again and saw this mod "cry of fear". I opened the page and i was stunned!

"How in the hell i haven't heard of this!? This seems to use the paranoia engine thing! BUT BETTER!"  This was around the time the first co-op videos were released. So i heard about CoF very late in the development. But this was a good thing in a way. Because waiting for the few months for release was difficult, but waiting 4 years would have been MURDERING!


Don't really know why i wrote this here 

And to darkydude: I envy you. You have had quite a journey  Great to have you here man.

[CSP]

What a kind and lovely thing to say. And all genuine too, from the bottom of your heart. How very sweet.

You've always been a bro, Darky.

[JonSplitz]

When I play a mod, I just think there is so many things that were just taken from the original game. When I play AoM:DC, I think that even though it doesn't use anything from the original game, it is still a mid.
But when I play Cry of Fear, it think to myself  "this isn't a mod, it's a game", and it is a game. None of the props are from the original game and it doesn't feel like a mod.
And whenever I get the chance, I play the darkcity track over and over again because of how awesome this game is.
That's what I feel like when I play this game, also this game is second in my top five games of all time (that I played). Thanks ruMpel and James for making AoM (ruMpel only), AoM:DC and CoF.

[Shad]

I was also one of those pussies who couldn't play it until my teen years when life hardened me, I might not have been here from the start, but I did eventually pick up and play Afraid of Monsters and slowly started to interact with the forums. I still remember when Cry of Fear was just released and everyone was discussing their thoughts and discoveries about it for months.

[Digwiid]

Cry of Fear Community= Best community.
This is probably the only place that i've opened myself into,and seeing as not getting hated on what i am has made this place have a special place in my heart,ill never forget about you guys! (no homo  )

[CSP]

Cry of Fear Community= Best community.

Possibly the best I've encountered. Really kind, expressive, interesting people I've befriended here, some better than people I know in real life. With cool heads, and an awesome sense of humour, I don't think I'll go forgetting you guys anytime soon.

I could spout praise forever, I really could.